I am pretty bad at it. That's all I have to say about it. Well mostly. But there is a post to be written. So I shall expound on it a bit. Expound sounds terribly arrogant, doesn't it though? Well, I will try to explain and hope that I don't try to defend myself because that isn't supposed to the point at all.
Promises I have made to others and promises I have made to myself. Some I have kept, most I haven't. The ones I have managed to keep have been the unimportant ones I think. I have already broken one promise, to my yet unknowing reader and my own self about being regular about posts.
Why am I this way? I doubt myself all the time and I over-think and I over-analyze and I am lazy to boot. Not a great personality then. But the question is not really about personality is it, it is more to do about character, of what makes me, me - someone who'd likely not deliver on his promises. This is not something new for me. I have been breaking promises ever since I can remember. Promises about doing my best for myself, for my family, promises to myself about quitting those bad habits and for developing those good ones. The promise to get off my ass and do something that makes it an existence of purpose, of cause and of sense. Those are the promises I should be keeping, right?
Do I promise too easily and not say no enough? That seems like a plausible explanation right? If I promise too much, then it does stand to reason that I won't be keeping quite a few of them. I read something somewhere about keeping to a plan - every morning make a list of the things you have to do, of the promises you have to keep. We are talking about the promises that can be kept during a day here, but that's just being specific, every promise is made of bits of promissettes (an invention, yay!) that I should stick to during the day as part of keeping the promise. And once you have that list, everything you do should be measured against that list that you have made and kept. No matter how you yearn for the last smoke of the day (not saying that would violate a promise I have made, by the way) but if that goes against the list, then the stick shall remain unlit. And let nothing (well almost nothing) sway you from the list - if its made the list - it stays on the list. And don't make too many promises - I think that's a sensible way of doing things - the list should be short.
So here's to keeping promises then. To myself.
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Again, a rejoinder here - I am not happy with the frequency of my posts (I can say posts now). Let me figure how to keep a more regular schedule. I have realized it takes forty minutes to an hour for me to knock off one post - I really should be able to manage that in a day.
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Today was Gandhi Jayanti.
